Sexually attracted to..
I'm dying to speak to someone about these feeling that I have about a man in my life that I should consider untouchable because of the circumstances. I know its wrong but I feel like I can't no longer control these feelings. Here's my dilemma...
I've been happily married to my husband for 10 years, high school sweetheart. He's the one I lost my virginity to & vice verse. We have 2 kids ages 9 & 2. We both work for his brother its a family owned business. I've worked for the business for 10 years now. Like I mentioned our boss is his brother & he's a great person & great boss.
For the past couple of years I've been very sexually attracted to my brother-in law. I haven't told anyone. I haven't approached my boss, I'm not sure how he feels about me. I know he's off limits because hes married & with grown kids except his 10 year old daughter.
I don't know what to do because when he walks in the room I go crazy about him. He's super nice with me but it's not in an inappropriate way. But somehow I just feel this chemistry between us & I just want him. I know I don't love him because I love my husband & our sex life is great but Im just very sexually attracted to my boss. I would love to just have sex with him that's all no strings attached & no one would have to know. I've never cheated on my DH & I know this is selfish but I just feel like I have to do this & I don't know why. I don't want anyone to know or get hurt. I don't even know if my boss has the same feeling though in a way I wish that he would come-on to me to make it easier. How can I find out if he does have sexual feelings towards me?
Is something wrong with me in the head? why do I have these feelings? Please don't bash me I just wan't to know if anyone else has gone through this? Do I need a shrink or what? What should I do?
Sorry it's such a long post. Please advise.